Unlovable

Are my lips unkissable?
Are my eyes unlookable?
Is my skin untouchable?
Am I unlovable?

Cynical, jaded, faithless, disappointed, disillusioned, used,
If I could take back all my sweat, my tears, my sex, my joy I would,
My time, my love, my effort, passion, dedication,
In case of mistaken identity I gave these things to you.
If I sound angry, bitter, sad, infatuated, it's the truth,
Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, just a few ,
Stages of acceptance that it's really over,
It's just so complicated and I'm stupid for believing in you.

You make me feel like my father never loved me, 
You make me feel like the act of love is empty.
Am I so unlovable?
Is my skin untouchable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you don't like?

I had your back, I held you up, I told you you were good enough,
It was not reciprocated, you kept affection and yourself apart.
You fed your love to me like crumbs to pigeons in the park,
Sometimes I think you're satisfied to see me begging like a dog.
I wasn't armoured, you were king, I gave my everything,
Because sometimes you showed me just a hint of you and then,
For just a moment I romanticised the notion,
I can take away the torment, I can love you like they never did.

You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me),
You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty).
Am I so unlovable?
Is my skin untouchable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you don't like?

You make me feel like my mother, she abandoned me (you abandoned me),
You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty).
Am I so unlovable?
Is my heart unbreakable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you despise?

Are my lips unkissable?
Are my eyes unlookable?
Is my sex undoable?
Am I unlovable?
Are my words unlistenable?
Are my hands untouchable?
Am I undesirable?
Am I unlovable?

You make me feel like my father never loved me, 
You make me feel like the act of love is empty.
Am I so unlovable?
Is my skin untouchable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you don't like?

You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me),
You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty).
Am I so unlovable?
Is my skin untouchable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you don't like?

You make me feel like my mother, she abandoned me (you abandoned me),
You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty).
Am I so unlovable?
Is my heart unbreakable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you despise?

You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me),
You make me feel like my mother, she abandoned me (you abandoned me),
You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me),
You make me feel like my mother, she abandoned me (you abandoned me).


Unlovable by Darren Hayes there.  I was just walking home from the charity shop today and this song came on my iPod.  It reminded me of someone and I instantly felt the need to chronicle this.  This is an awesome song, even if it does make me cry.


Peace and love to all. xxxx